Silence

So, I skip work today
Told everyone I had doctor apppointment
In truth, Im just to lazy to do anything

What I did at home

woke up around 8
watched 4 episodes of korean drama
then fall asleep
then woke up around 1
watch another episode of korean drama

at 2ish, took a shower
force myself to go out
had lunch at a cafe

then went to work

yup, i went to work at 3.30 pm
however, did i do any work?


nop, i surf the net
listen to music
instagram
facebook
twitter

all that, until 6 pm

I texted my brother to pick me up
because i want to go home and sleep

yup, that was my day.

One Republic & Timbaland - Apologize

On day, a girl received a text from a guy 

she have not seen for few years

They talk and decided to meet up for fun

She picked him up infront of his house

off they went to KLCC

for lunch and a movie

During lunch, they talked about

the things they missed and 

update each other of their life

then they went to watch a movie

the girl jump into the guy

she kissed him 

and he kissed her back

every few minutes

she and he were kissing in the cinema

both was sexually aroused

both dont want to stop

He seen her home

They made a pack

will meet up again 

to have sex.

and they did 

until now. 

Its been 2 years.

Some days the girl dont want to have it

Some days the girl demand to have it. 

She wants to stop

She wants to be good

She still figuring out how 

can she fight all these urges 

Timbaland- The way I am

I'm struggling with my weight
I'm 20 kg over my ideal weight
In less than 6 months,
the weight shoot up to 20kg

I tried everything
from intermittent fasting
to keto diet
to not eating at all
to eat all
stop sugar
just drink water
aerobic
cardio
yoga

Everything less than 3 days
then i give up
i dont care
then i cry and make myself do again
repeat the cycle
but again I end up just not doing anything

I need to lose weight
I been diagnosed with a type of skin disorder
due to overwhelming stress
my nails turn yellow
my skin got reddish patches

Inside out
I feel really ugly.

All this suck
I need to do something